Epilepsy can be caused by many different conditions that affect a person’s brain (like a stroke or brain tumor) but often no definite cause can be found.
I am an unwilling recovering control freak. I say unwilling, because to be completely honest, I would much rather continue to control the things that I feel need controlling (i.e. almost everything) than give in to life’s roller coaster. Enter my three children. My eldest started to challenge control before she was even born – insisting on arriving three weeks early and completely rocking my world. I have to say, the loss of control got worse with every child…and although I still can recognize that most of my daily irritations arise from me trying to control something I can’t, I choose to believe that I’ve gotten a little better at rolling with the punches.
The Epilepsy fact I’m sharing today is probably the most problematic for me. I don’t know WHY my daughter has epilepsy. I don’t know HOW LONG she will have it. I don’t know if the physical challenges she has are a SIDE EFFECT of her medication, a RESULT of damage from one of her seizures, or something she would have struggled with even if she never, ever had a seizure or a diagnosis of Epilepsy. There is no cure, no promises, no control. It makes me feel incredibly helpless, sometimes angry, and mostly anxious.
With that said, I am inherently an optimist. So I am hopeful – for my daughter and everyone who has/had/will have epilepsy because I have seen an epilepsy-related miracle. The miracle I witnessed has names – Dr. Alan Stein and Dr. Alfred Bowles – an amazing Neurologist and Neurosurgeon that paired up and gave my husband a seizure-free “do-over” in life. So in the spirit of optimism, I raise my half-full glass and say, here’s to a future of miracles.